Say something I’m giving up on you…
It’s not paranoia with me anymore. They really do talk behind my back about my craziness. My hubby just told me so. Him and mom talk about me altering reality and ending up like my biological mom. Yay fucking me. One of my biggest fears is reality. Way to go peeps. Way to make me feel like I’m losing so much more, thanks for the support. I wonder if the whole family does this. I’m losing it right now and don’t even have anyone to tell because who the fuck knows who to trust anymore. I’m so done. Honesty is bullshit and I hate it. I fail at life and recovery and everything in between. Let’s hope for a better tomorrow and that I don’t end up everyone’s worst worry and end up like bio mama okay? Okay.
- Lupita Nyong’o
If you relapse, just know that I’m not disappointed in you at all. Of course recovery is difficult road, and there’s no way you should be expected to instantly get over everything. I’m proud of you for going clean any length of time, and that you’re trying recovery. <3